Music Makes the world go round

So i had a chance to play worship again before more chemo. I can't explain how excited i get leading people to worship. It's just this amazing feeling to know that people can come to God and worship and i have something to do with that. I'm not sure what's ahead but i just wanted to thank all the people at lakeside who have been praying and thinking about us. It's great that Rosemary and I have been able to find a church that we not only love but have been so welcomed into. So a little update on the chemo schedule. It's sounding like thursday i will go back into the hospital for another 3 to 4 day stay again. Same as last time, chemo for 3 days. The way my blogging went last time i am thinking i should probably stay away from trying to write while heavily medicated. Although it sounds like some people were at least amused by my ramblings. So after that another 3 weeks off like this last time and then we go to the Davis facility to start the stem cell transplant, or bubble time as i am calling it. Got some new books to read though over the next few weeks. Vintage Jesus by Mark Driscoll, then a couple of older books i have always wanted to read. "The Idiot" by Dostoevsky and a complete works by C.S. Lewis. I hoping maybe i can be inspired a bit in some of my lyric writing by some of these works. So that's it for now, thanks for all the prayers, thoughts, support, food everything you all have been doing for Rosemary and I. It's made us realize how amazing our family and friends are. See ya

Thanks

Some awesome guys from Dixon Family Christian Center made a youtube video tribute to me while i was sick. They covered my song Breathing In with a little metal twist, anyway i just wanted to say thanks and send everyone over to their youtube account were you can hear a couple of their own songs or at least some ideas they seem to be working on. Thanks guys.

Authentic Life

" I had a rusty spade but I'm not the fighting sort...if I was Samson I'd have found that harlot's blade...and cut my own hair short!...then in a market dimly lit I come casually to pray...you see my coins are counterfeit...but accept them anyway

so spare me your goodbyes...your waving-handkerchief-good-byes...given my tendency to err so on the sentimental side...I'll spare you my goodbyes..the truth belongs to God..the mistakes were mine" MewithoutYou

First I love mewithoutyou. Even if you cant get into their music you need to at least read their lyrics. So beautiful and mostly authentic. I had a conversation yesterday with someone and we started talking about authentic living, being true to your self. This has got to be one of the hardest things to do I think for all of us. Not that I don't try but I fight the temptation of being so authentic that it offends people, or trying to search for an answer that will just get by. What I mean is that I think non of us ever live completely true to what or who we are. We're so worried what people might think that we bring these counterfeit offerings to others including God. I find sometimes as I act out of what I believe God has put on my heart it's questioned. Obviously my own will is going to sometimes bleed it's way into what I do, but I must believe when I make a decision I have prayed about faithfully that God is in the decision I am lead to. I think its amazing though that even when we bring these horrible offerings to God of our time and minds what ever it is He accepts it. He knows exactly what we are thinking but still finds a way to use what we are offering for His own good. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I think I'm authentic but I also know that I fall short because I am so weak, I'm so happy Christ can overcome those shortcomings to make sure others see Him.