The Adventures of Bubble Boy (day 3-4)

Just laying here today. Last two days of treatment haven't gone too bad. I am getting enough medication to keep the nausea and sickness away. I can definitely feel the fatigue coming on though. Sort of just piles up day by day. I am currently getting two types of chemo twice a day. This is the third day with the 6th treatment tonight. Two more tomorrow and then another larger dose chemo that's completely new again on sunday. Then the transplant. I can't believe the response so far from everyone concerned. Certainly gives me hope to do something for everyone when this is done. Sorry I don't have much to say, very tired, thanks for the thoughts and prayers. A little something i wrote yesterday

patience is a virtue which i learned then threw away
there’s calmness and composure which left the first frantic phone call i got
diligence and endurance which lasted til my strength finally left me
forbearance is what i was born with but even it won’t keep me moving forever
heart and perseverance is what people say of me
but even they can’t get inside this head
resignation is the road i am now headed on and serenity is what i seek
tolerance is another i have come to know fully
yielding is what i have left.
But to yield is to stop for me. At least it would seem to be too much.
yield can be succumbing, suffering, handing over to defeat
but it can also be admitting, relinquishing, or submitting what little i have left
i control nothing

I know not where to look for wisdom
Job 28:23-28
23 God understands the way to it 
       and he alone knows where it dwells,
 24 for he views the ends of the earth 
       and sees everything under the heavens.
 25 When he established the force of the wind 
       and measured out the waters,
 26 when he made a decree for the rain 
       and a path for the thunderstorm,
 27 then he looked at wisdom and appraised it; 
       he confirmed it and tested it.
 28 And he said to man, 
       'The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom, 
       and to shun evil is understanding.

covenenants aren’t meant to be broken but mine feels crushed
gladly i would sacrifice and walk through the blood
seems like i have but still ahead more