I'm so sick of getting stabbed

So a little update. The doctors have decided to try something a little different. We are not sure all the details yet, but after having had my bone marrow taken out the other day, its been decided that a stem cell/chemo regiment is actually the next best course of action. I will still also be doing radiation at some point but they want to make sure there is no more cancer spread throughout my body before doing very localized radiation. We still don't know all the details of how this will take place but we know it will, at the very least, mean spending 3 days in the hospital and having my own stem cells taken out and then given back after receiving another type of high dose chemotherapy. 3 days is looking like the minimum but a few weeks is more likely. Unfortunately it seemed like we were done but the area thats left seems to be quite resistent. I am very fortunate to have a great doctor, Robert Quadro, who is not only fighting to make sure I get into this new stem cell program but also making sure i am a prioirty and that what we do now will help me live not just a few years but as long as any normal person. I am still very frustrated but at peace with the path before us. I just want to be normal but i guess that will never really be possible again. I guess in a way though i hope i can use this to help others through painful situations they may face, i mean cancer is a pretty tough one and if i have the strength to beat this, i should be able to stand against anything. I hope too i can help get the word known about this horrible disease. If you have time check out the link "I'm too young for this" that i have on the page under links. Its an advocacy group for young cancer patients. They have a stat on there that cancer has doubled in younger age groups since 1970. It makes you wonder if sitting at my computer and typing this is just giving me more deadly radiation, who knows. Anyway people need to know that young people's lives are changed everyday by cancer directly too, and something needs to be done. At least young people and doctors who are treating them should know that it is possible for people my age to be sick. I would hate to see more people go through the struggle i did in finding a doctor to believe me only to get sicker because it took so long. It seems to be a trend among the age group though. Time to get off the soupbox now and get to fighting. I've been able to play 3 baseball games so far and at least 2 more this weekend, before my next treatment begins. I am thankful for that. It helps me have a goal to work for when i able to accomplish even teh simple things like working out, playing sports, working, and leading worship again. That's all for now thanks for following along God bless.